these thoughts are killing me, i wish i could meet you just once. just to know what you look like, sound like, i just want to know that you cared and it wasn’t my fault that you died, every day i break down thinking of this, and i can never know the truth if it was or not. people tell me im not the reason you took your life but i dont believe them.  I feel i am the reason why. i miss you dad <3 ill meet you some day i just dont know when or how soon im sorry for what happened you didnt deserve to die at 16 i love you no matter what even if i will never meet you or actually physically see you i hope god just gives me my one wish when i pass to talk to you thats all i ever ask so i can truly rest in peace with knowing the truth.